New short-stories on the horizon: Anthologies in Australia, Florida and beyond

   Between editing my upcoming novel Lies of Heaven and working on my daunting WIP High Prey Drive, I've been using much of 2020 to develop my short-story muscle. I'm one of those writers that finds himself more comfortable stretching out in a novel length effort, so I've found it a great challenge to have to reign myself in for the smaller word counts. A tough lesson to learn: Just because you have a lot to say, doesn't mean you have to say it all, all the time. But short stories can be so gratifying - they often leave it to the reader's imagination to fill in the blanks that their wonder runs away with.

   I wish I can remember who said it this way: "A short story is about a murder. A novel is about the murderer."

   So I've got some shorties coming out in these next couple months. "The Lonesome Defeat of Bridge-Repair" will be included in the gargantuan Burning Love and Bleeding Hearts Anthology (Things In The Well, Australia) to be released on Valentine's Day. Also from Australia, Black Hare Press will be releasing their Twenty-Twenty Anthology which will include my noir "Straight To The Bone" which concerns four rivaling men's hygiene business moguls. And hopefully not last, my story "Wrath Child's Atrophy" will be appearing in "Little Boy Lost: More Tales of Youth Disrupted" (Mannison Press, Florida). WCA is sort of like Stand By Me but with heavy metal kids.

PRIDE OF THE COG: A Field Guide For Creatives To Outwit Their Day Job, by Gabriel Hart

(The following was written in 2016, originally slated to appear in Zara Kand's anthology on The Creative Process, a project since abandoned until further notice)

                                                                 

                      PRIDE OF THE COG  

       A Field Guide For Creatives To Outwit Their Day Job                          By Gabriel Hart       

            

      I am often asked, by those who don’t seem to harbor any artistic cell in their bodies, about my artistic process; how exactly the path is tread from a mere thought or idea to the finished “product” (and a question I often ask myself is, what’s wrong with it merely remaining a thought or an idea? Why corrupt its innocence by poking and prodding at it all?).  The inquiry irks me every time, and I fire back with the paranoid arrogance of a criminal trying to frame a bystander through blatant (AKA sadly transparent) manipulation:

    “ WELL, if you have to ask, then you don’t deserve to know, as you obviously don’t have a creative bone in your body.  Why should I tell you, if you’re just going to ape my steer in order to cheat your way through a life where you clearly shouldn’t quit your dead-end day job!?!?”

            I am humbly reminded far too late, that this person is actually my co-worker and I am also working at our dead-end day job.

            So, what is exactly wrong with that - an artist being “forced” to work among the unwashed, where we were once so proud to claim origin?

            What else would we expect, Entitlement?

            What else would we want, Privilege?

            When must this authenticity cease in order to become successful? The initial inspiration for your life’s work was this backdrop, and if you’re expecting the rest of us to continue to relate to your output, it should continue to include this backdrop – which should encompass the nagging theft of your true calling, the bone-crushing weight of society’s expectations. Let us call this classist environment “The Ever-Looming Extortion of Your Soul” and let us dissect an example of its inherent divinity.

            You wake up every morning with the oozing abyss of your deepest, most fertile subconscious still swirling in your head. You feel that anything is possible, that anything can and will happen. You may even cherry-pick your nightmares for ingredients to appear in your next creation, ecstatic to be reminded that your unique brain was responsible for such concrete tangibility, when it was finally allowed to rest. You pay tribute to this phenomenon by writing it down, or if it was piercing enough, it tore a part of your mind down where it now excitedly tries to lay dormant until your next direction.

           

            There is just one problem: The rising rays of your life’s work is about to compete with the growing shadows of your day’s work. It is here where you are a character in someone else’s play, in which you must repeat the same lines over and over again and interact with hundreds, sometimes thousands of other people who’s main objective seems to be making you forget everything great you had planned.

            You arrive to work reluctantly, still piecing together the disembodied serpent of your interlacing genius, when suddenly, somebody has the nerve to ask you simple directions to the peanut butter and you nearly meltdown, as you were in the middle of a serious emergency that existed solely in your own head!

            As individuals, we forget the importance of ourselves as cogs in a larger, only seemingly un-artistic machine. It should be considered a symptom of artistic integrity to know how to adapt to poetic discomfort rather than entertain the delusion of a complete removal from it.

           

            Who do we really think we are when we insist that we are too good for the mundane? Let us not forget the vitality of living amongst the doldrums with our brothers and sisters. By giving our fellow-man even a sliver of arrogance when he is merely trying to eat and get out of your sight, perhaps even trying to get back to his life’s work, we have slowed down his process as well as our own, our frequencies scrambled due to our lack of confidence and organization, unable to properly file away our still-fermenting creative flood. This is of utter importance to hone, as we know good and well something even more mind-shattering is likely to come our way, where we must not only be on guard, but with a low-heat on our backburners.

            Otherwise, we burn it all down.

            That said, let us ask ourselves; where is the accountability of our little precious melting snowflake of a thought or idea? What fucking good was it when it did not possess the spine to withstand a lady asking you what she is supposed to do with spaghetti sauce?

            Let us look at the dead-end job: not as a sieve where we lose ideas, but as a filter where only the most refined bits of our creativity shall pass into being. The repetition, chaos, idiocy, and oppressive nature of this environment shall merely tighten the crosshatch of this strainer, challenging the integrity of each concept.

           

            Remember, our thoughts are not necessarily gospel just because we are the ones that thought them. More often than not, it is advantageous to get rid of any evidence that it actually came from you.

           

            This is where our second mind comes in, the artist’s brain in its purist form. In the scenario of the automaton task, the hopeless grinding of doing something against one’s instinct. Our body occupied, our mind will then wander out of protest - a convulsing, squirming escape as it floats to more divine heights. As our brain focuses on, say, bagging groceries for the consumer, our second mind should, in theory, get right back to our life’s work. If we are true artists, we should be no strangers to this form of dissociation, knowing we must spend the rest of our day perfecting a balance between these hemispheres.

            99.9% of us adore and look up to Nick Cave. But Cave revealed his artistic process that seemed to reek of fallacy, when he audaciously boasted that he “clocks in” to work every day to his “office” for eight hours where he sits at his typewriter or piano and sees what comes out of him, uninterrupted. Not to assume Cave doesn’t have a horde of personal demons and self-doubt keeping his output a consistent challenge, but even that concept seems a luxury when you subtract the everyday hierarches, economical struggles, and social quicksand that keep the rest of us from fully realizing our creative work. There is no doubt that he has earned this luxury on a hard-road lasting decades long, but I lost a sizeable sliver of respect for the man who thinks that he is “just like us” just because he has some self-induced discipline, re-appropriating proletariat terms like “clocking in” and “office.”

            But we have digressed…

            “EXCUSE ME! I’m talking to you. Where are the flat taco shells?!? This is the third time I’ve asked you where the flat taco shells are and you seem to just be ignoring me! Where’s your manager?”

           

            Our threat of potentially getting fired is a more than a reasonable motivator to leave our musings on the shelf for a second.

            “I’m so sorry, Miss. Is it tortillas you’re looking for?

            “Well, I’m not sure what THAT is! Do I look like I speak Spanish?”

            “No, of course not, M’am…In fact, you look as pasty white as these tortillas right here!

            “Ah, thank you! SEE, WHAT DID I SAY - FLAT TACO SHELLS!!!”

                                                           

                  

            It is a hard-boiled battlefield out there for the working class artist. So much so, that at times it feels like you should not only retreat, but refrain from existing in it altogether. But it is this friction – the grinding of a situation that essentially should not be that naturally causes the spark of the transmundane where we reach beyond the confines of the physical world. The more guts we have to be present in the mundane, the more strength/focus we'll have to be present in the transmundane. Or how another TM (Transcendental Meditation)refers to it - The Unified Field, where all ideas are born.

            It’s a no-brainer to say “write everything down” but let us go beyond documenting not just your own thoughts and ideas, but also utilizing the absurd hurdles that get in our way – thus re-appropriating your opposing forces. Many consider this to be the most simple form of practical magic - not only is this the obvious first step of turning your miasmic imagination into tangible reality, but it also a way of gaining control over its antithesis.

            In other words, whistle while you work! Whether you be one of the Seven Dwarves or one in Seven Slaves - if it was all worth a damn, you will have an interesting puzzle to subpoena your subconscious with when you arrive back home that evening.

            

           But then, as you open your own front door, you are greeted by your partner, who may have forgotten to say hello, as they hold in front of you a long list of chores that need tending to, immediately.

            So here’s to dreaming…

                                                                                                       Gabriel Hart

                                                                                                       Morongo Valley

                                                                                                       November 2019

PANEL DISCUSSION FOR NEA's "THE BIG READ" - "What Defines Literary Genres?" with Gabriel Hart, Susan Rukeyser, and Jon Christopher (mediated by Jean-Paul Garnier)

   Last month I had the pleasure of joining fellow desert authors Susan, Jon, and Jean-Paul to dissect literary genres for The National Endowment For The Arts "Big Read" event at Space Cowboy Books in Joshua Tree. It was meditative, opinionated and even hilarious at parts, and I think we all walked away seeing certain genres we thought we had pinned in a slightly broader way. You can hear it in its entirety here.

   "The Big Read" oversaw a month's worth of events focusing on Emily St. John Mandel's brilliant dystopian-fiction best-seller, "Station Eleven." Since there had been a lot of opposing viewpoints pertaining to what genre it fell into, we included it in our discussion - praising it as well as picking it apart, while challenging our own definitions of literary genre.

                             (L-R: Jean-Paul Garnier, Gabriel Hart, Susan Rukeyser, Jon Christopher)
                                                                                           Photo by Mia Torres.

My next reading will be Saturday, July 6th at San Diego's genre-fiction paradise Mysterious Galaxy As a special "In Discussion" panel, moderated by bruja-fiction author Lizz Huerta , I'll be joined with J.S. Breukelaar and Keith McCleary. The event is free and starts at 2pm.

DIP-ICK-SHUNS

      

           

            A majority of a writer’s life is spent navigating rejection. The good news, at least for myself, is that the more I am rejected, the easier it gets. They cross you off the list for that particular piece, and you cross them off. There is nothing personal when you both need to keep the wheels turning, the arteries flowing unobstructed by foreign matter.

            But occasionally there’s going to be a clear outrage, where a writer feels so misunderstood by one gatekeeper's reductionist opinion, that it sends the writer screaming into the stratosphere.

            After a proper solicitation from the editor, my twin novel Virgins In Reverse/The Intrusion was recently rejected by a major L.A. literary institution, on account of how the assigned reviewer “balked” at the way women were depicted in the book. To be fair, it was the most personable, kindest rejection letter I have ever received – to the point that I felt a genuine empathy for the editor, as it seemed they found themselves up against a wall – and I could only imagine the kind of pressure they were under in our current climate, where we are trying to break stereotypes of females in the media - something I am in large support of, in spite of these alleged transgressions.

            If I was going to apologize for my book, I would say that I probably wouldn’t write the same book now at age 42, that a majority of the novel was written nearly ten years ago, by a previous version of myself who may have been blindly machete-ing his way through life, who may have read/watched one too many noir books/flicks to the point where he was not just writing but actually living that way, that a lot of the book was based on my fledgling worldview that required scapegoats to make sense of it all, that I loved women so much back then that I briefly forged a double-life of cross-dressing in clumsy tribute to the fairer species, that I loved women so much I never saw them as meek and submissive but as in-tandem, intrinsic and powerful presences that could potentially fuck a man up so good that it was always a wonder to me why gender equality was still even an issue, forgetting to consider anyone who didn’t live as hard and ravenous as my co-ed inner circle.

            But I will never apologize for my book. How could I, when you consider the universe I created in Virgins In Reverse/The Intrusion, where every single character, man and woman, is guilty?

            Every major player in the book is debased, overzealous, paranoid, self-centered, self-loathing, weak, nihilistic, hypocritical, delusional, insensitive, overly-sensitive, violent, and finally murderous but most of all: imagine this - exaggerated for narrative’s sake! For better or worse, it is these qualities, more than any kind of unattainable fairytale attributes, that I see as an overlapping common ground for both men and women who have let themselves go and hold no accountability for themselves – which is just one facet of what I feel is the book’s unsavory deliciousness.

            For the uninitiated: The protagonist in both stories is the debauched twenty-nine year old Caleb, who finds himself in the throes of runaway train obsession with a woman named Cecilia. They both work at L.A.’s Silent Movie Theater, and the theater quickly becomes its own character as their own Church of Forbidden Love (we won’t mention the unnerving addendum that in real life, this theater became another ground zero for the swell of the Me Too movement in summer of 2017, when its owners were exposed for their vast, systematic sexual harassment conspiracy, even though it’s an important one it its own right and you can refresh yourself here). One of the themes of Virgins is romance, and what comes with romance is the eventual rude awakening that everything is not how it seems, as when we romanticize a relationship, we are idealizing the other, glossing over mutual character defects that may eventually lead to the union’s disintegration.

            

           In their attempt to settle down before they really get to know each other, both Caleb and Cecilia meltdown, becoming exaggerated versions of themselves in an effort to uphold their own identities – Cecilia as the controlling vixen succubus who assumes the spirit insect of the gorgeous but deadly Emerald Wasp, and Caleb as the unkempt fiend, the drunken buffoon who takes the form of Cockroach.

            

           Even though the author of the book is a male and is told from a first person male perspective, you are not necessarily expected to sympathize with him throughout the story. In fact, the reader is tricked – at first you may be charmed by his trajectory, but as the layers of Caleb are peeled back, you realize he is a deplorable human that you are unfortunately, stiflingly stuck with until the end.

            

          This unveiling – this horrible yet relatable depiction of man - grows even darker once The Intrusion begins, as Caleb has lost all control of himself. With further disregard to take accountability for his actions, Caleb has convinced himself he is in fact, possessed by an evil spirit that is making him do all sorts of horrific things.

            I decidedly left a lot of grey area and voids to be filled by the reader’s own imagination, so it may take on a life of its own inside the readers mind. I like the idea of the reader taking ownership of how they interpret the book, to give it a personal branding with which they can empathize. There are some that think through his obsession with her, Caleb is possessed by Cecilia, or by the spirit of a queen bitch Kali-esque entity. I like to see it as this: Caleb IS the evil spirit, the way someone can haunt their own house while they are still living. The living, breathing embodiment of bad vibes, man.

            But make no mistake here - by the time the book ends, the reader should have equal disdain and sympathy/empathy for both Caleb and Cecilia, as well as the common degraded tendencies of both women and men, as the roles of who is guilty and who is innocent (that is, if you insist that there always has to be those kind of reductionist terms in your adorable, fragile mind) flip-flop so many times that one can only deduce that the only truth worth arguing in favor of: that we are a conflicted species at constant war with ourselves and others, no matter what kind of genitalia we have been cursed with. And as long as the sun does shine, we are always led to reckon that we are unable to run from our respective shadow selves.

            Virgins In Reverse/The Intrusion is without question, a nasty book for nasty men and nasty women alike. That is, if the reader has the guts and compassion to see a little bit of someone they’ve known in the characters, if not their own damned selves. And if not – I applaud your good fortune, if you were lucky enough to live such a safe, antiseptic life that these phases of growing up come across so appalling that you may “balk.”

            

           In fact, let’s discuss class issues for a moment. For Cecilia and the other major female, Amber, the two women are maligned not because they are female, but because they are grim examples of the extent of “how far can too far go?” that is largely dictated by the opposite sides of the tracks they find themselves on. Cecilia is the calculated, overly-confident rich kid who you get the feeling has never heard the word “no” before, armed with the assumption that “everything is negotiable” by money or manipulation. Then there’s Amber (who only shows up for a couple pages but is an important spike in the narrative), who barely skims by in a junkie flophouse off of Vine. She is desperate, scattershot with her emotions, and has allowed her abysmal environment to sculpt her for worse, scrambling for self-confidence as she grasps at straws to make Caleb stay with her, in spite of it being a toxic, empty union.

            

           While I maintain it is a work of fiction, most of these characters are based on people I have known – true characters in my colorful yet misguided time in Los Angeles where my depraved instincts could only attract comrades and lovers of a similar ilk. Still, these are depictions – again, exaggerations - of not just a type of person, but what we can only hope is merely one phase of a person. To take these creative snapshots out of context, that are imperative to the arch of this twisted morality tale, then condemn the author on the grounds that he is somehow dragging a whole gender through the mud merely from a momentary facsimile – I believe you are actually doing a disservice to a large element of feminism – that a woman can be whoever she wants to be, and if it is somehow unattractive to society’s cruel, imbalanced standards, well, consider the corrupt source from which we come.

            

           While it is paramount to empower the female, it is also unfair to women to insist that all depictions of a woman can only be one of the empowered woman. To disregard all the inherently human moments of temporary weakness, of abandoned hope, of bottled-up rage, of using the best intuitions you have been dealt to merely survive; is to balk from a counter-intuitive soapbox of privilege, where you are actively ignoring the struggle aspect of a woman’s plight. Of a human’s plight. Much like the men, the women I have portrayed in Virgins In Reverse/The Intrusion have lost their fucking shit. But like some of our sisters in real life, who didn’t have the luxury of an understanding family, an empathetic lover, in a culture that often systematically encourages their mistreatment, they have every right to.

April is National Poetry Month - I have four new poems in this month's issue of Cholla Needles

   While I began writing songs when I was thirteen, I never wrote poetry as a kid - largely due to spending most of my life assuming that songs and poems were one and the same. But after the atrocious event of Bob Dylan winning the Nobel Prize for Literature in 2016, I was infuriated, considering of all the relevant contemporary novelists that could have won the specific award. Bob is a musical icon, sure. But as far as actual literature goes, Dylan had only written the jibberish of "Tarantula" in 1971, before his more recent memoirs. And here the Swedes were now claiming that songs were literature? As both lyricist and novelist, I scream at the top of my lungs that this is simply not true.

   Songs, as great as they can be, are essentially what I prefer to call "ego-jingles," a frontman/woman's beating of chest whose sole purpose, like it or not, is to reduce itself into a commodity to sell albums for a label or beer at the club. Songs, when written well, or rather, if there is enough money behind your "team," are lavished with praise and press, to help sell ads in print magazines, online sites, and if you're really lucky, to help a car commercial appear more in touch with the today's vague zeitgeist.

    Poems, on the other hand, are the lonely, thankless road - even if the poetry is "amazing." Poetry is the true emergency, the personal means to end, the cry for help, the declaration of independence, the the scream in the forest that makes no sound, meant to be savored either in lightning strike moment of the poet's live reading or the brief repose from their book. 

   Poetry has been flowing from me now more than ever, largely due to the solitude and allowance of refection in the desert. Big ups to Rich Soos at Cholla Needles for the opportunity, over and over. In this month's issue, I have four: "Late Bloomer With A Love Supreme," "Paper Cuts," "Deep Root Delusion," and my favorite, "Heat" (pictured below).

Click here to purchase Cholla Needles Issue 28.

New story "Through The Raven's Eyes" on Episode 13 of Space Cowboy's "Simultaneous Times" podcast

   "Through The Raven's Eyes" contains a psychedelic theory of human existence that I have been entertaining for some time now - sort of an updated, more nightmarish version of the whole "what if our solar system were just an atom on a giant's hand?" trope. I often relate a lot of human behavior to cellular level mechanics, especially after getting my mind blown by Howard Bloom's The Lucifer Principle in my late twenties. Come to think of it, one of my favorite songs around that time was Anita Lane's The World's A Girl, and I think it would make quite a fitting accompaniment to the story in another format.

   Our favorite antichrist Jack Parsons makes an appearance (in theory) but I promise it's bereft of the usual fanboy worship that we usually fall victim to.

   Thanks to Jean-Paul Garnier and Zara Kand to helping with the cast reading, and to Oneirothropter for the soundtrack.



https://spacecowboybooks.bandcamp.com/album/simultaneous-times-episode-13